25th October 2013

Mình thực sự đuối.
Thực sự rất sợ, nếu năm nay mà k được IChO nữa thì sẽ làm sao :(
It takes a lot of time from me and what if I receive nothing!? I know people, they are trying so hard just as me. But I have sacrified a lot. And I really want to take a chance. I know it can change my life.
Well and of course I know, my health is getting worse and worse.
And I forgot a lot of things I had learnt last year. Well, so what do these things lead to? Will i fail again?
Well, I have always been the top in every semester, every class, and among so many people. I cant imagine that one day, I cant be the top. Now, it is happening to me. I saw so many people who are my friends, they were the top of some schools but when they got to the high school, they are no longer the best one. But they still, at least, still feel happy and enjoy their high school life.
I dont know how they have overcome it. However I know I HAVE TO know the way. My positive future is on my hand, I HAVE TO know how to get out of this terrible fear, and go on. Let do it!
"Phuong, sometimes, take time to relax. You keep thinking about it, but you cant solve it at last. The only thing that you get is pain. Come on, genious are everywhere, you arent genious, you know? But you did your best, so proud of it. And if you want to have it, think about nothing but try. So take it easy. Enjoy your breathing, take yoga. Take a good sleep. Take medicine. Take happiness. And after that, do not thing about the past, do not think about your mistake, do not be stressful, do not try to compare yourself to others, because noone is happier than others. And if you want to cry, just let yourself do it. Remember, you can lose any race but you can win the other races in contrast. Believe in God. Even you tried so hard, you can lose. No reason for this. God wants you to lose. But you have to take a strong belief in God, dont try to betray him. He wants the best for you.
Sometimes, you cant get the things because it isnt match you and it doesnt mean you arent deserved it. Dont be sad. Be happy. And be strong.